Putting It Into Words

I have never been one that is great with expressing my emotions. Believe me, I express them often, but at times I struggle to find the right words for them.

When dealing with infertility, I really struggled. It seems as though unless you have been through it, you don't understand. I think it is something you think you understand, but you just don't.

Finally Able To Talk About It!

I will say, it has been hard not to break down and say everything that has been going on. I am now almost 13 weeks and feeling like we are in the "safe zone".

I felt terrible how much I was slacking on here. No Monday Meal Plan, I couldn't look at food until about 11 weeks. I lived off pb&j and chicken noodle soup. Poor Mark was left to fend for himself on all meals. All I wanted to do was cook him something each day but the sight and smell of it just didn't let me get there.

The house is in less than perfect condition.  A lot of laundry to be done, dishes to be washed and a TON left to pack. I have had no energy to do any of it. Thankfully Eliza still naps regularly so I was able to get some extra sleep in throughout the days.

My sister is back to working and going to school full time so my weekly sitter wasn't available anymore. I am sure hopeful the blissful second trimester comes quickly.

We went to the OBGYN when I was roughly 8.5 weeks. This is a new DR so I wasn't sure what to expect. She came highly recommended by an Ashermans friend who used her and successfully had a little girl earlier this year.

The DR is beyond wonderful. She is sweet, caring, attentive and very reassuring. She did an ultrasound and it was amazing to see the little bug. Eliza got to hear the heartbeat, although she said it was too loud.

Here is a picture from that appointment. Not the greatest, as the Dr said, this is a wiggly one!

Eliza didn't say much more, didn't seem too interested or really understand what it was. Every night when we go to sleep she asks if she can kiss the baby. That night, as she kissed my belly she said "I saw you today baby, I love you.". I DIED.

So here is to hoping for an uneventful few months. Hopefully we start to feel the wiggle and giggle of the baby soon. Hopefully our move(s) go smoothly and I get back some energy.

Thank you to all of you who prayed for this miracle in our lives. We know without the power of prayer and the miracles of The Lord, this little bug might not have ever come into our would. Thank you.

Enter to WIN a $25 Credit to VeryJane.com Giveaway Ends 5/31

I am so excited to tell you about the giveaway we have today! 

When VeryJane heard of the exciting news of Baby #2 being on the way they graciously donated $25 in credit to their online store for one of my readers!! 

I have to be honest, and I hope the other sites don't hear me, VeryJane is by FAR my favorite daily deal site. They have something for everyone, every day! I love that each day there are multiple new items to check out. Whether I am looking for something for myself or Eliza, I can always find something to swoon over! 

Now I have to wait a few more weeks, but I can not WAIT to know if this little one will be a girl or a boy so I can start snagging stuff from VeryJane for them. 

Here are a few of my favorite things I have seen on VeryJane lately:

How stinkin' cute are these personalized tumblers?? Eliza loves to drink out of mine, she would go bonkers over one personalized just for her!

We all remember the little plastic letters and numbers we had on the fridge as kids, look at the new modern version! Way cooler than what I had! 

Check out these summer sandals! I want one of each, in each color!! What a great way to dress up some shorts or pair with a cute maxi dress!

Now that you see just a small portion of what they offer, lets get to the good stuff, entering for your chance at a $25 credit!! 

Enter to win using the Rafflecopter form below.

You must be a U.S. resident who is 18 years or older to win. I will be contacting the winner following the 5/31/13 close date and the winner will have 24 hours to respond to their email. VeryJane will then provide the winner with their credit.

Good Luck!!

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This giveaway is sponsored by VeryJane.com, all opinion are my own. 

Telling Mark! Very Picture Heavy

If you haven't heard the AMAZING news, another little Ernest is on its way!!

Here is the story of how I told Mark...

I Can't Find The Words...

I have been writing this post for a few weeks now, but the words just aren't coming to me. There are events in your life that words aren't able to describe. They seem inadequate.

Our life has been crazy lately. Packing, moving, and so much more...SO MUCH MORE.

Letters To My Love Bug 12 Weeks Pregnant

Thank you to Shone Foto for these photos.

What A Wonderful Weekend!!

The weather has been gorgeous! I can get a bit finicky about the heat, but as long as their is a breeze to keep me cool, I am happy!

Mark was out of town last week which left Eliza and I to fend for ourselves. Since I am home with her all day it isn't that different, but those 2 hours Mark is home to help with her at night, man how that helps.

Humpday Humor

Throwback Thursday

Since she is only 2, we don't have many years of Throwback. Here she is just over a year ago on her first trip to the Toledo Zoo!

Oh what a difference a year makes. We went to another zoo this past weekend, we even got to ride a camel!

Dreaming of Daisies and Daffodils

Usually this time of year means mulch, flower beds, and hanging baskets. Now that the house is technically not ours, I haven't done any of this. Yes, I am sure the new owners wouldn't mind me sprucing up the gardens but kind of a waste of money when we are on a tight budget.

I dream of what the landscaping of the new house will look like. It is kind of difficult to picture and plan when right now all we have is a hole in the ground, but trusty Pinterest is always there to help.

Not all of these are realistic for our yard, we can't have a fence, we don't have any really large trees and I tend to kill most things that aren't automatically watered by the sprinklers. Hey, it is worth a shot though!


I have always wanted to grow roses, they are just so pretty!

Have you seen the Home Depot commercial where the husband and wife go to make these towers? I always paid close attention because I would love them for our front porch. So happy I found a link to save the directions!

I have always wanted a vegetable garden...too bad I hate most vegetables. But come on, how cute are these rocks to label them!?

We have a lilac bush at our house now and I LOVE the smell. It is right in front of our kitchen window so when you open it, it fills the house. I do have to say, I hate the amount of bees it brings.

I always dream of sitting out on our patio or porch. The houses are so close at our current house that you feel like everyone is watching you and can hear you(they can) so we tend to just stay inside. At the new house, no one around for miles(OK, acres). I will love these to light up the patio as we sit and talk.

Oh, how I love window boxes. Again, they will probably die, how it the world do you water them???

I adore Hydrangeas. They were the flowers I used at our wedding so I think they have a special place in my heart. We have 4 Hydrangea plants at our house, one was a shower gift from the local nursery, I am hopeful the new owners will allow me to dig it up and take it with me.

I mentioned earlier, we aren't big vegetable people, but we sure are fruit! I love this link to 66 things you can grow at home.

I think my favorite pin, and by how often I see it I think a lot of people like it, is this birdbath planter. It is just too cute! So DIY and Eliza will love seeing the birds in the backyard.

Come Out Come Out....Wherever You Are

I'm here, I'm here!!

It has been quite a while since I have posted, life has been crazy lately.

We have closed on our house(not fun but done), packed up a lot of the house, HOPEFULLY found a rental house for the interim and started on the new house.

Lets start with closing on our house. Well, we definitely didn't get what we wanted for the house, but we view it as we are done, it is sold, move on. All we have wanted was out of this house, so we are just looking at it as a win! The closing was a NIGHTMARE our Realtor didn't show up so we had no clue what we were signing and no clue what to do. The title company had my name spelled wrong on all documents, and they were charging us for our association dues even though I had already paid them for the year. Luckily, the buyers are very nice and I am happy to pass it on to them.

Packing up, we have so much to still do but we are putting away the easy stuff. Picture frames are down, candles and nick-nacks wrapped and packed and extra dishes away. I will say, we might have packed a bit soon with some things, I have found myself searching for things in boxes, but it is only tape to replace so I am glad I label well. We are doing well with tossing things and selling things online to get rid of the stuff we just don't use.

We found a condo to rent, it is actually directly across the street from our current house. It was tough trying to find a rental. We don't know how long we will need it so having someone agree to a short term lease or month to month was rough. Lets also not forget about the dog! Luckily this guy is wonderful. It is the perfect size and lots of room for storage. It isn't any further away from Mark's job so that is always a plus too! We get to move in come June!

Last, but absolutely not least, they have started on our house!!! I swing by there a few times a week since I am out that way often and I love seeing the progress! So far we have a basement, walls and the plumber is coming tomorrow!

We seriously have the greatest builder!!

All she cares about is finding rocks

Update: So I feel like the worst mom in history. For the past week Eliza has been giving us a lot of issues with sleeping, whether it is night time or nap time she really fusses in her room. So much so that she has actually been falling asleep in our room from time to time which she has NEVER done. She always asks for her "specials" but we assumed it was just a tactic to get out of sleeping. She has a "special blanket" and a "special wooby" that she sleeps with each night, she has had them both so we were at a loss. Tonight, as I was typing this, she was struggling again to sleep. Mark went to check on her and told me all she wants is her "specials". I decided to go up and talk with her. I snuggled her up in her chair and asked her what was wrong:
"I just want my specials back"
"Eliza, wooby and blanket are right here"
"No, those specials" as she points to the wall.

My heart broke. Last weekend as we packed stuff away I took down the shelves in Eliza's room and packed up all of her nick-nacks. Pictures of us, special figurines, just little things. She helped me pack them and knows they are going to the new house. Apparently she is missing them. Looking back I realize how much she likes them. She talks to the pictures of Mark and I when she is settling herself to sleep. We always hear "that's you mommy, that's you daddy" as she lays there. It is her comfort, and I took it away.

First thing in the morning(only because she has finally fallen asleep) I will be unpacking ANOTHER box, and putting up all of her specials.